High Heel Confidential

This is one site i am religiously following off late

http://www.highheelconfidential.com/

Now your question will be why this of all the other fashion sites? That's because this site concentrates on Indian stars and what they wear... I love the movies in Hollywood ... Par Phir bhi dhil hai hindustani ...

i didn't know even desi stars were so brand conscious. Also helps me figure out what goes good with the Indian skin tone...

Unaccustomed Earth ...

Human nature will not flourish, any more than a potato, if it be planted and replanted, for too long a series of generations, in the same worn-out soil. My children have had other birthplaces, and , so far as their fortunes may be within my control, shall strike their roots into unaccustomed earth.

- NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE

New Hairstyle ...

As one of my friends mentioned to me - "When you can't change anything else in your life - change your hairstyle"

Interesting times...

There is this phrase "Interesting times" that i have started using very frequently. Truly this year is going to be very interesting for me and lots of people around me - Postponement of my wedding to the uncertainty of the job, few of my close friends being laid off, weddings, divorces... sure .. it is interesting.

All these years - i kept thinking nothing can stop me aka i am all set to do what ever i want in my life. But wait - life is not a fairy tale..

This global meltdown is definitely testing my patience and confidence...

There is a very first time for everything in life.. For the first time, i felt nothing was falling in place no matter how hard i try- should i be patient? Actually do i really need to be patient?

For the first time i feel so insignificant ...Working offlate seems to be for only buying scarfs and sweaters... hmm.. never wanted that feeling to creep in me .. but what to do.. everything has a first time ...

Lets see how long i can stand this ...

Wait Wait - even in a fairy tale - the princess goes through tough times and finally meets her prince charming and lives happily ever after ...

First day first show

Yesterday was my first day at work this year. I tried implementing my old scheduling algorithm to my day. When i was a kid, i used to schedule every hour of the day, i knew what i wanted to do by end of day at least...

Today i was able to do things at 50% efficiency.. or may i say 50% of what i expect myself to do :)

I did quite a lot of things today - went to work by 1030ish.. great achievement considering the fact that i was getting to work only at 1115 am for last few weeks. I did a decent job at work - read few documents, attended a meeting where i learnt a few new things. I caught up with few old friends on messenger. I wanted to buy a rug - went to the shop to decide stuff.. I even went to my favorite craft store and bought the colors i needed for my new painting. After that i hit the gym as well... and mostly i am gonna paint now...

Looking forward to increase my efficiency and have more such days this year

Shobhaa De ..

I just read an article about Sonam Kapoor calling Shobhaa De a porn writer... Hmm... I have always liked reading books by Indian Women Authors...

I first started reading her books on my flights back to Hyderabad. I used to buy her books from the small Higginbotham counter in the Chennai airport.

I don't know why - but i do like Shobhaa(we both are Capricorns and have the same zodiac sign - boar). I relate quite a bit to her, a person from a middle class family living life on her own terms. Someone who can share her views with people and is not scared of being judged.

I loved her book Spouse - which talked about the subtle things which are important for a marriage / relationship to succeed. I loved the fact that she made me realise how simple things like holding your partner's hands can make you feel so good.

I also loved her book SpeedPost:Letters to my children.

I grew up with the notion that parents are perfect human beings - but now i know i am not perfect - no one is perfect. I loved the fact that she was able to accept that she was wrong, she was not perfect.

Life .. Planning ...

Life was so perfect when we were kids. My parents always knew what I needed to do. I was extremely planned through my school and college, knew exactly what I had to achieve. I ended up being very successful in school and college. Right after college I started working in Microsoft which was an awesome achievement for me and my family. First few years in Microsoft just passed by, with that initial momentum. I then started my soul searching exercise.

One of the questions that came up to my mind was - Why was I so planned all my life? Was planning in life good or was it making life very monotonous? What did I achieve by being so planned?

I think planning is important for anything in life – personal or work. Everyone around me has been thinking I have been doing great in my life, but I was never completely happy in last few years... I don’t know why nothing (Diamonds/Cars/Good clothes etc etc) made me happy. I think the reason was that I didn’t know what I wanted in life. When I don’t know what my end results are, I don’t work toward anything/ I don’t have any plans. Even if I do something, how do I find what I have achieved /accomplished in life?

So in the coming year... I am going to get back to my planning mode now that I have a fair idea of what I want... hmm... I am already super excited about this new phase of my life

Happy New Year!